anchored in light

A lifestyle blog about finding light in every avenue of life

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Random Fact Wednesday!

Random facts for today...

  • I do not currently have a favorite flower. It used to be lilies, but though they are beautiful, they do not smell as good as they look. On that note, if anyone has suggestions on what I should make my new favorite flower, I am open to suggestions!

 Just a few wildflowers :)

  • When I can't sleep, the best way I know to get to sleep is to tell stories. So I tell myself stories of adventures with Jeremy Manhandsome, works every time, also, this was previously a secret. Speaking of Jeremy...
  • Jeremy Manhandsome is the name of my future husband. He was invented for me by my best friend when I was 16, which leads me to...
  • I have written letters to Jeremy Manhandsome since I was 14. Although, before that he didn't have a name. I'm mostly decided on burning them before I get married :) Which also leads me to...

  • I love letters! Getting a letter or really anything in the mail that isn't junk is the greatest feeling ever. I believe the world was a better place when we all wrote letters. Thus I have written my roommate Dizzle since we stopped being roommates 3 years ago. I'm totally open to new pen pals by the way :)
Your thoughts? Favorite flowers? Secret future husbands named by ex boyfriends? Wanna be my pen pal? I'd love to hear from you!
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Monday, April 28, 2014

Permission Granted

For a lot of my life I was afraid to do some things. Things like cooking, running, starting a blog, photography. Or, try new talents. I took away my own permission to do these things. Really, it was dumb.
I did it because I wasn't already good at these things. I knew people who did most of these things. I knew people who did these things well. I didn't want to be judged. I didn't want to seem like a poser. I was afraid that because these things weren't already a part of who I was, that I had no right to be adding them to who I am.
What kind of crap is that?
I'm not the only one who does this. We all deny ourselves permission all the time.
The real question is, who do you want to be? The real question is, what is stopping you?
For me, I have always had a big long list of who I wanted to be. Smart, funny, considerate, kind, spiritual, beautiful, a reader, a writer, a runner, a traveler, an adventurer, chef, fit, willing to serve, loyal, a good sister, a good daughter, patient. It was easy for me to write down everything that I wanted to be, who the ideal Rachael was in my head.
But, it always seemed like there were so many things stopping me from being what I wanted to be. I have believed myself to be lacking in talent. Not good enough to try the things that I wanted to be. I was stopping myself from being what I wanted to be. I still am in some ways. I have always been a dreamer, it was difficult for me to be anything, or anyone else.
So one day I gave myself permission. I told myself that it was ok to learn. It was ok to try. It was ok, to be whatever I wanted to be. I took my own life in my hands, and decided that I get to choose.
We all do.
Not that there aren't things that prevent us from doing what we want to do, but we have a measure of control. We have the ability to change our lives and all it takes is a choice.
So choose today to be what you want to be. Choose today to take control.

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Sunday, April 27, 2014

Temple Trip #2: Provo Temple!

Saturday was the second temple trip! We went down to the Provo Temple. It was beautiful, even with the rain! A nice little family even took a picture for us! :) Luckily we got it before my camera died... ha ha. I always forget to charge that thing.
I love getting Best friend time every week. I've got a lot of it this week with M. We went out to dinner on Thursday at Taste of Thai with HATRED! It was really good by the way. Never been there before!

Anyway, back to the temple. It was so fun to see all the couples getting married. Surprisingly I didn't see any brides with long dresses. And a cute little family getting sealed :)

I love how calm it is at the temple. Even if there are a billion people there, it's just nice. Stake Conference is this weekend so it was nice to recharge before that. I'm also singing! Woot!

Don't judge me. I totally bought one of these last year! So excited to fill it up!

We were in Provo so of course we had to stop at Krispy Kreme!
What do you have to get when you're in Provo? What was your favorite thing from this weekend?

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Saturday, April 26, 2014

Paper Heart Poet :)

This idea has been rolling around in my head for months now. Today is the day that I finally brought it to life. I love opening books and finding little notes that the previous reader left behind, whether that's a bookmark or post it notes or whatever. There's just something magical about it. Don't you just love finding things in books?

So basically the idea is that I'm going to leave poems in books! 

This is the first one and it kind of introduces the idea of paper heart poetry :) It bugged me out of my bed the other night when I was trying to fall asleep! Please tell me I'm not the only one that happens to. Phones are great things for this reason!
What do you guys think? How would you like to find a poem in your book? :)
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Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Random Fact Wednesday: Dating Edition

I think it important that you know these, especially if you are a man and we are on a date.

1. I am addicted to chapstick. Which means, just because I'm putting it on DOES NOT mean that I am looking for a kiss. In fact I'm probably not. Unless we're dating, because those are the only boys I kiss :)

2. I have a 3 date rule. You ask me out, I will say yes up to 3 dates, that's how long you have to impress me. So unless I was already interested, just know that yes, this is a test.

3. Chivalry is not dead. I believe that if we are on a date you plan it, you pay for it, you open all of my doors. I will always say Thank you for you opening my door, even if we've been dating for years, because it, and all of the above, are appreciated. 

4. I always try to get the boys' middle name. It was recently brought to my attention that I did not have the middle names for more than half the boys that I've dated... which is sad, but I still try to ask!

5. If you want to make me really happy, and see me get really excited, take me to a book store. You'll be treated to 101 of my favorite books and tons of, "Have you read this book?? I loved this book!"

6. If I am unsure of whether or not it is considered a date, I'll take my cues from you. If you don't pay for me, don't open my door, then I know it's not a date. 

7. I believe that you should be on time. I have only ever made one boy wait for me to finish getting ready and that was a mix up on when he was coming. I'll be on time for you if you'll be on time for me. If you're going to be late, send a text, or call! Immediately off the hook! Unless you push it back more than twice, then I just can't help you there buddy!

8. I am an open book. This one isn't just for dating, but for every day life. I will tell you anything! You want to know, just ask! 

9. I'm just a girl who can't say no... when it comes to going on dates. I don't know that I've ever straight up rejected a guy for a date. I get all nervous and somehow, even if I wanted to say no, it comes out yes. I don't want to hurt their feelings. Yes, I know this is a terrible flaw of mine and I'm working on it.

10. I just feel like there should be a number 10, even though I can't think of anything else! I used to have a no boys shorter than me rule... but then I dated a guy who was a full 6 inches shorter than me (I'm 5' 9") so that kinda went out the window...

Anyway, what are your dating rules? Am I the only one that has these?
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Monday, April 21, 2014

Spoiled Rotten? Pay it Forward!

This last week was wonderful! 
I am someone who loves surprises, but I don't get them very often. In fact, I used to be pretty hard to surprise (sorry ex-boyfriends!) because I wanted them so badly, that I was always looking for signs that someone was trying to surprise me. 
Gradually, after being disappointed over and over again, I let the hope for surprises go. I throw my own parties. If I want flowers, I buy them.

But last week, I was surprised :)

My coworker Debbie brought me Naked Juice in my favorite flavor, and cookies n' cream drops, also my favorite, just so I would have a good week during testing! 
Then my friend Hatred brought me a cupcake! I haven't seen her lately. 

It was a wonderful week, and I felt so loved. 

I went on spring break on thursday, so Friday I decided to pay it forward. I got my best friend a little something for when she got home from her trip to San Francisco. And my older sister I got a notebook and pens :) (We ALL love new notebooks and pens in my family!) and dropped that at her house. Ha ha which kind of failed because her boyfriend saw us. 
He saw me trying to use sign language to tell Charissa that she'd been caught and that she should just give it to him.
"Just go!"
"I can't, he's right there!"
"I know! He can see me! He can see the car! Just go!"
"I can't! He's RIGHT there!"

It was great! So if you've been spoiled rotten, or even if you haven't, see if you can pay it forward! Add just a little sunshine to someone's day :)

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Sunday, April 20, 2014

Temple Trip 1: Timpanogos

At the beginning of the year I made a goal to visit all the temples in Utah. I have the greatest friends ever P.S. I told my best friend about my goal and she agreed to join me! So yesterday was our first trip! We were planning to hit up Logan temple and Brigham City, but I called the temple on Friday and they said they were completely booked. Walk ins were welcome from 5:30 to 7. AM!!! I live an hour and a half drive away from Logan. If traffic is good.
So we're going to get those ones another weekend :)
Anyway, I've been to Timp before, once in the baptistry, and outside it another time when my brother got married.
It was beautiful! Even if the wait was about 2 hours.

 Best friends who travel together, stay together :)
 Did you make any traveling goals this year? How many temples have you been to or seen?
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Thursday, April 17, 2014

Because of Him, I am Anchored

Today my home teachers came over. For those of you who may not know about Home teaching, it's when  a couple of guys (or in my case, a lovely couple from my Bishopric) come to visit once a month. We catch up on what's going on in each others lives and talk about spiritual things too :) It's great.
Anyway, they came over and shared a message from Pres. Uchtdorf, who is my favorite Apostle. It was about being anchored. An anchor keeps a ship in place. It doesn't let it drift.
I've been working on being more firmly anchored lately. Cutting out little things that were helping me drift from where I wanted to be and who I wanted to be.
Easter is coming, and I've been seeing all these amazing posts on facebook about how my friends' lives are different, better, Because of Him
I've had drifting periods in my life, and I have never drifted far, but I am so thankful that he is an anchor in my life. I am grateful that I always have an anchor to come back to. I am thankful for everyday where I feel his light.
He anchors me in place, to who I want to be, to who I should be. 
It's amazing :)

What anchors you? 
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Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Random Fact Wednesday!

So, I feel like there are a lot of random things about me, but I think they’re also pretty interesting. Ha ha, so every Wednesday I will treat you to at least 5 random facts about me.

1. I am a list maker (in case you haven’t noticed…)

2. I don’t want anyone wearing black at my funeral. White or colors only!
3. I wanted to be a fashion designer when I was 15 (may or may not still design things...) :)

4. Dolphins are my favorite animal

5. I have never been out of the country, but I definitely have been bitten by the traveling bug! I would happily live out of a suitcase :)

What are some random facts about you? Share them in the comments or drop me a line! :)
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Monday, April 14, 2014

In Defense of skinny girls

Today I was at work, eating my lunch, when my co-worker starting talking to me about how everyone was going to judge her because her husband brought her an entire roast chicken for lunch. I thought it was funny and said her husband was sweet for bringing her lunch. Then she said something to the effect that I didn't ever eat anything. True, I don't eat a lot at work, but I do eat before I come and I do eat when I come home. Depends on whether I get a chance. I don't have a lunch hour where I work.
If you've seen pictures of me, or you know me, I'm skinny. I have always been a very skinny girl. I have heard the gambit of reactions. Everything from, "You should model!" to "That's because you don't eat."
Yes, because I've managed keep myself alive for 23 years by eating nothing. If you know anything about my other blog, you'll see it's mostly food, and it's not really good for you food either. Not that it should matter. Whether I eat cheese fries, or whether I eat celery shouldn't really matter.
I should not have to defend my body.
Today in the media, there have been all sorts of different discussions about what we should say to people about the way that we look. We have Biggest Loser for the people that are "too fat". We have plus sized models because we shouldn't be forced to be skinny to be beautiful. We shouldn't promote an unhealthy image.
I've heard a lot lately about the photoshopping of a gap between models legs promoting an unattainable image. I have a gap between my legs. Always have. No we shouldn't photoshop these things in, but if they're there, should we photoshop the other way?
I agree, we should not promote unhealthy images. BUT, we should not attack people, no matter what size jeans they wear. Why do we have to go one way or the other? Why do we have to hate all skinny people? Why do we have to hate all fat people?
We all of body issues, whether you're a size 0 or a size 16. Lets not make things worse by attacking the way people look. If you want to compliment someone, by all means, but don't wrap it in an insult. We were all born with different genes, different tendencies, toward skinny or large. It shouldn't matter. I can't help being skinny any more than some people can help being fat.
We're all beautiful, big and small, tall and short, fat and skinny.
Halloween 2012
August 2006

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Saturday, April 12, 2014

Ready, Aim, Fire

Yesterday was a little epic.
I started off at work, just finishing up some testing (I'm sure you've all heard about the lovely SAGE testing, right?) if not, just know that it's the new end of year testing that has parents up in arms.
That's not what the story is about though. My sister found me in the copy room. I thought that maybe she came to surprise me or something, I said hey and she almost burst into tears.
Our little Soleil had run away.
So I left work and I went on foot to look for her. Thankfully Charissa gets dropped off by a friend who was able to help us look. After a few prayers and two searching cars, our friend found her :)
I ran home. 
I've always wanted to be a runner, there's something freeing about it. So I ran home. She was safe. Riding home in our friend's car like it was her victory chariot, on her way home from an adventure.
Guess she gets that from me ;)

Then we went swimming for a single's activity. And afterward, we finished it off by shooting airsoft guns at targets, watching Lara Croft, and eating Pazookie.
It was my first time ever shooting an airsoft gun. By the end of the night I was hitting the targets and cocking the gun much easier than the beginning of the night. (I seriously could not do it in the beginning. Could barely pull it back). I felt so awesome!

 The sisters who shoot together stay together. Right?? :)

 Yes, I had to shut one eye every time I shot. Don't judge me.

Look at that, tell me you wouldn't want that as a pazookie shot

Overall, the day was epic, and everything turned out. A happily ever after.
have you ever been in an airsoft war? ever hit the center of a target (darts counts :)  )?

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Thursday, April 10, 2014

For the Love of Books: Two Princesses of Bamarre

Ok, so seriously, this is one of my favorite books of all time. I really don't remember the first time that I read it, but I think I was in my early teens. If you have a sister, you need to read this book! This book as been an anchor in my life! My be bold, be brave mentality has come from it! Any time I'm afraid, I think of this book. I think of the poem in it.

Basically, this book is about two sisters, one who is brave, and one who is afraid.
I think one of the reasons that I really love this book is because I have always been the fearful little sister. At least I was when I was younger. Just like Addie (the fearful sister), I have been afraid of spiders, and of losing my sisters. 

I am lucky enough to have two sisters. One older, one younger. My older sister and I grew up like twins. She's just 13 months older than me and so we went through everything together. We got into all sorts of mischief as children, she always was scheming and I went along with it, terrified of getting in trouble the whole time.
My younger sister is 3 years under me. When our parents split, I became Mother, and sister to her. We've had to put aside our differences and band together.

That's my little sister on the far left, my older sister right next to her, my mom and then me. Ha ha this photo is like 5 years old.
This book makes me cry every time I read it, even though it's a little sad, it's a good kind of cry. Mostly because it's all about sisters and learning to be your own person. In any case, it's a good book! Read it and let me know what you think!
I am always looking for something good to read! What are some of your favorite books?
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Saturday, April 5, 2014

Be bold! Be Brave!

Today was the first day of Conference! I love conference weekend! To be honest I used to hate it. I thought it was boring. I didn't understand why we had to sit there for a total of 8 hours in one weekend. That was until I went to EFY for the first time at 14 years old. I had no idea what EFY was and I was mostly going because it gave me the chance to see my very best childhood friend for a week straight.
Everything changed for me after that week.
First of all, you have to understand some things about me. I have always believed in my church. I cannot recall a time in my life, from my youngest memory, when I did not believe, when I did not have a testimony of this gospel. I was always the perfect child. The one that obeyed. The ideal child.
I was a Molly Mormon. And I took a lot of flack for it from my family and friends over the years. Before that EFY I wasn't fully committed, even though I firmly believed.
I think that this EFY came at a very vital time for me. I don't think that I would have fallen away or anything if I hadn't gone, but it gave me a strength that I didn't know I would need. That was the year that my parents got divorced. It was no surprise to any of the children that they were splitting. My dad hadn't been going to church for awhile and my older sister, my best friend since we were only 13 months apart, had followed him out of the home and out of the church.
My brother was on a mission, my sister was gone and my mom had to go back to school and back to work to support us. All of the sudden I wasn't the second youngest child anymore, I was the oldest in the home and I was second Mom. I don't know that I could have gotten through that without the aid of my faith and the increased love that I found in the gospel.
Since then I have gone through a lot of things and I have found a love for conference to the point where the two weekends of the year that we have conference, are my favorite weekends of the year.
I love seeing the apostles and prophets speak. I love seeing the quotes that everyone pulls out on facebook. I love the assurance that I feel and the revelation that I receive when I watch. I love the strength that it gives me.
This conference, as in many others, they asked us to be brave. Something of a mantra in my life. Being brave is something that I have always tried to be. However, being raised in a home where I had one parent firmly clinging to what I always believed, and the other trying to help me believe what they believed, both with the hope that I would know the truth and be better for it, I've become afraid to share what I think about what I believe, more in my own family than anywhere else.
I have learned to keep my mouth shut, unless I would like to defend what I believe on a logical and scientific level (we're all very intelligent in my family). My best friend that I grew up with, my sister, believes differently than me, but she has done something that I truly appreciate. She has never attacked me for what I believe. She has made an effort not to swear around me. She has (for the most part, childhood shenanigans aside) never tried to get to me to anything that she knew that I didn't believe was right. She has respected my beliefs, just as I have respected hers.
But today, I just want to say, with respect, that I believe in conference. I believe that we receive truth from it, and I love it. :)

On that note, this is our pirate ship which we enjoyed conference in today. If you're thinking it looks too comfortable and that you might fall asleep... then you'd be right as some of the family did :)
How do you celebrate conference? What was your favorite quote?
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Thursday, April 3, 2014

Chocolate grilled sandwich

So maybe I shouldn't have eaten this. 

 But I just couldn't resist! A grilled chocolate sandwich. No one should have invented this... but they did! By the way, that sauce is crepe sauce, cream cheese and sweetened condensed milk... It was a great day. And on great days, you can't help but eat off princess plates and have things that don't really count as food.
In case you want to know how to make it, just butter your bread, choose your chocolate, grill it like a normal grilled cheese! I sprinkled mine with Cinnamon and Sugar, but you can do salt if you want!
 Found these beautiful frozen raindrops on the buds on my way to work. Do you see why it was a great day? :) Can't wait for spring! Plus, General Conference this weekend!!! :)
What a way to welcome spring! :)
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Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Pazookie Shots

There are a few things you should probably know about me. First, I may be skinny, but I love food! Especially desserts. Don’t even ask me how many times I’ve been forced to eat an entire cake (or most of an entire cake) since my health conscious family refused. (Hint, it’s a lot). Second, I’m addicted to the food network and yahoo food. (I know, you’re all thinking, just wait until her metabolism stops from all the cheese fries and cake… then she’ll know what it feels like to have to be health conscious.) Third, I work in an elementary school part time where I don’t get a lunch hour.
So what do I do when I’m bored at work?
I look at yahoo food. I look at yahoo food and think, why didn’t I pack a snack? Also, “I am totally making that as soon as I get home!” Not that I do. But I think it.
Today I stumbled across this beauty…

Cookie shots! I don’t even like milk and I want to make these! Ok, so I’ll probably fill mine with ice cream. Sue me. It’s close enough right? Also, I don’t know that I’m going to actually make the cookie dough… That’s getting a little TOO lazy now isn’t it?
It's fine. I'll call them pazookie shots!
In case you haven't had the pleasure of having pazookie...
basically you mostly cook a cookie in a skillet in the oven (shout out to my Tangled fans :) ) then put ice cream, hot fudge, and whipped cream on top!
Basically the greatest ever! :)
Anyone else obsessed with food? Desserts? Want to be my best friend and help me eat them? :)
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