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Sunday, August 3, 2014

I Never Thought to Ask

I've been taking an institute class this summer, and I won't lie, it has been awhile since I've taken an institute class. Anyway, I've been having all these little epiphanies about life and about church. It seems like every time I go to class, some new thing occurs to me. 
Well, to be completely honest, they're mostly things that I've thought of before, maybe even "known", but they're things that haven't touched me.

The other day when I was in class, learning about Isaiah, someone was talking about something that they read in the scriptures. They knew the reference, they knew the story... and I just thought, man, I have always wanted to be able to do that. I have always wanted to be able to quote things: books, scriptures... But I've never been any good at it.

I remember once I was writing one of my novels for NaNoWriMo and I texted all of my returned missionary friends to ask them for some missionary names. I wanted one of my characters to kind of be like a missionary for his cause and I wanted his name to have meaning. My best friend called me back with an answer, but also a question, "Don't you already know all this?"

And yeah, I kind of do. But not really. Even though I'm pretty good to read my scriptures every day and have been for years, I couldn't tell you where I read a story, or quote that scripture.

So while I was sitting in institute, it hit me. I never asked for that. It is something that I've always wanted to be able to do, something that could potentially help others, and I never thought to pray for it. 

Then I just kind of sat there, thinking about how silly I'd been to never think of that. I have prayed for all sorts of things in the past that were important to me. Things that I wanted. I have prayed for my hair (to grow, to be healthy), I have prayed for my teeth (mostly when I think I'm getting a cavity), but I never thought to pray for the ability to remember what I read. I just kind of accepted that I wasn't any good at it, and probably never would be.

No, praying for it doesn't guarantee that I'll magically be able to remember everything like a scriptorian or a scholar, but it's kind of like winning, you can't win if you don't play, or, in this case, you can't receive that help if you don't pray for it.

I fully believe that God is just waiting to bless us, to help us, to give us both the things that we need and that we want, if they are going to be good for us and those around us. Just remember, if it's important to you, then it's important to him. Any goal you're working on, anything that you're working toward, He can help. Just remember to Ask. 
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