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Monday, November 30, 2015

Monday Moments

Welcome to Monday again guys! I don't know if I told you about how I started making a list of all the things that I like about each day of the week (in an effort to not live my whole life waiting for the weekend and then being sad when it ends), but I did and so far it has helped me be happy it's Monday instead of dreading it so much. 

Also I've already splurged on Cyber Monday deals... It's alright, right?



I took this picture Monday just as I was getting out of the car at work (the Captain drives me every morning :) ) If frost was always this pretty, I don't think that I'd have the heart to scrape it off. 



Also on Monday I made Creme Brûlée! If you want the recipe, you can get it here ;)



"Do not go gentle into that good night, Rage, rage against the dying of the light"







Charissa's hair that I did for Thanksgiving. I kinda made it up on the fly, but it turned out well... 



Meanwhile this is how I did my own hair for thanksgiving. I have this complex about straightening my hair (which is why I was blowdrying it in this picture). I always intend to but almost never follow through, because "the curls seem to be working out so well today" and then maybe they won't work out so well tomorrow.

Needless to say I sported curls. 



We put up our tree! :)


 We also went and saw the new Hunger Games! We all really liked it! I am now re-reading the series to see what they changed. Plus I really liked the series. 


The Captain made us pancakes yesterday for breakfast! It's a pretty good gluten free recipe that I will probably end up putting on the blog eventually. 

Anyway, I hope you all had a good Thanksgiving! Happy Monday!

What did you do over Thanksgiving break? 
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Sunday, November 29, 2015

Beauty

I know that I said I wanted to talk about Time Out for Women today, I'm just trying to decide if I want to throw you into the mess of my thoughts or organize it all for you. Since Time Out for Women spanned over 2 days, I learned a lot of things and it's a little scattered.

Overall I would say that I was looking for ways to be better, to become more the person that I feel I should be and also the person that God would like me to be. I often wonder if they are the same woman and how I can bring my own dreams into alignment with what he wants me to be.

I remember thinking specifically about beauty at Time Out for Women. They had two of the women from Studio C come and be interviewed by Sherri Dew. Mallory said something that really struck me. She talked about how we validate little girls by telling them how pretty they are, and how cute.



This is something I have written two or three unpublished blog posts about. About my own struggle to feel like I am worth more than my face and about how often times I don't really feel all that pretty anyway. And I wondered as I say there, listening, if I had done you all a disservice by keeping those posts to myself. I can't be the only girl who looks around and says to myself, "Maybe someday I'll be pretty all the time like those girls", as if somehow then I will be worth more, will have somehow made it (whatever that means) in life like I should have.

Because it seems that no matter how much I accomplish, if I can't be pretty, then what does it matter anyway? 
But it does matter. 
It's something I keep telling myself and maybe someday it will sink all the way in. Who I am is much more important than what I look like.




I have a lot more thoughts about Time Out for Women that I'd like to share, but for today I just want to leave you with this. Male or female, old or young, your worth is not based on what you look like. You are more than your body.

Thanks for reading! Happy Sunday!
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Friday, November 27, 2015

Creme Brûlée

Welcome to my very first Foodie Friday. I have been meaning to start these for quite awhile. I have a lot of recipes that I love and I really would like to share them with all of you! 

This particular recipe I got from my mother-in-law. The Captain and I made these together for the first time on our 6 month anniversary. It had been on my Cooking Bucket list for a long time, but it was SO much easier than I thought it would be! So if you love Creme Brûlée, trust me, you can make it yourself!






Makes 8 small ramekins or 4 large ramekins

Ingredients:
8 egg yolks
3/4 cup White Sugar
1 Quart Heavy Cream
1 tsp Vanilla

1. Mix egg yolks with sugar using a wire whisk. You can separate the egg yolks by passing the yolk back and forth to separate from the whites in the halves of your broken egg shells.
 Set aside.

2. Bring heavy cream to a boil. Make sure that you are continuously stirring if you heat it on the stove to prevent it from scorching. Once boiling remove from heat. 
While cream is boiling, bring some water to boil. You will need to fill about an inch of a 9x13 pan.

3. Add vanilla to heavy cream.

4. Mix in egg yolks, don't use a mixer.

5. Pour into ramekins.

6. Fill 9x13 pan with 1 inch boiling water. Place ramekins in the 9x13 pan.

7. Bake at 350 degrees in the oven for 25-35 minutes for small ramekins, 50-55 minutes for large ramekins. Bake till scrambled egg consistency (when I first made these we freaked out a little because it was bubbling when we pulled it out, it's totally normal and fine). Test by sticking a spoon into one of the ramekins.

8. Let chill for 2 hours.

9. Immediately before serving sprinkle with white sugar, just enough for a thin layer over the entire top surface. Broil in the oven or use a culinary torch to melt the sugar into a crust. 
Tip: We found a torch at Bed Bath and Beyond. Torches don't come with butane, but at least a Bed Bath and Beyond, you have to ask the cashier for a bottle. You can also find culinary torches online. We tried to get one at Walmart, but they didn't have any actually at the store, so you may want to purchase yours ahead of time! Trust me, you'll want one once you make these at least one time!

10. Enjoy!

Let me know if you make these and how they go! Good luck and Happy Black Friday!

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Wednesday, November 25, 2015

A Gratitude List

Wednesday is usually a time for random lists (and you will not be disappointed in that today), but first a rant.

How do all of you feel about "fill in the blank" giving? For example, "Friendsgiving" I was ok with this until I realized A) this is not a an actual date. Apparently you can label any day of the month in November "Friendsgiving" and it's chill. Or, you can put whatever you want at the beginning of giving and suddenly it's a thing. Drinksgiving, familygiving, bloggiving... really anything you want and apparently that's ok, even though it doesn't even really make sense. 

Rant over. 

Anyway, on to the list.

I wanted to make a list of things that I am grateful for this year. 
One of the things that I am not so great at as a blogger is recognizing things as they are happening, for example, holidays, but it's something that I'm working on. It's odd really, because I'm usually thinking a lot about those things, but then it never makes it to the blog.

15 things I'm grateful for this year:


- A place to live
I seriously didn't know where the Captain and I were going to live after we got married. 
- Amazing friends and family
I have been more blessed than words can say in the friends and family department. A gift that I am truly grateful for, but that I don't always express proper gratitude for.
- My Captain
You all knew it would make the list for obvious reasons, but I just want to say that he really is amazing. It's true that marriage magnifies faults and he has been so very patient with mine.
- Words
- Beautiful things
- Ambition and motivation to be better
- Music
- The Gospel
- Talents
I don't always feel like I have a lot of these, when in reality I have more than I keep up with. 
- Cooking
- My amazing readers
I can't say how much it means to me that you read these words of mine, even if you only ever answer my questions in your head
- A place to work
I enjoy being a contributing member of society, I love my job. Especially since the Captain lost his job, I have been especially grateful that I still have one.
- Education
- Inspiring things in my every day life
Like photography and books and art. Things that enrich my life simply by being
- Access to health care
I don't use it a lot. In fact, I try to never use it, but I'm so grateful that it's there when I need it and that it can help me not have to use them later.

What are you thankful for this year?

Thank you all for reading! Hope that you have a fantastic Thanksgiving!

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Monday, November 23, 2015

Monday Moments

So you know how sometimes you can't remember what you did yesterday? That's kind of how I feel about this last week. It seemed both very long and very short and until I looked at these pictures I really had no idea how they passed (which is I guess why we should take pictures, or you should if you have the shortest memory ever, like me, apparently). 



That is my nephew, traumatizing my Pomeranian with his love.


If you follow me on histogram you may have seen this. Plus if you follow me here then you already know of my love for notebooks. Seriously a difficult thing for me to not buy them every time that I go to the store. I have to have this in-depth conversation with myself on why I don't need anymore notebooks and consider it a success if I only walk away with one. 
It should not surprise you that when the Captain and I went to the store to pick up a prescription, we spent about 15 minutes in the pen section debating the merits of different kind of pens.
Yeah, we're those people.




The Captain and I went on a date to the Oquirrh Mountain Temple. Then we went to Wingers and The Chocolate for dessert.
Just FYI you should try their hot chocolate. I got the mint, which I've had before, and it was just as amazing as I remembered ;)



 How many of you went to Time Out For Women? Any other first timers like me? I really liked it. I've been quoting it all the time in the past 2 days. My husband wasn't aware until yesterday that it was a churchy kind of thing, he thought it was a women empowerment thing. So in case you were wondering, it's kind of both. :)



I tried Johnny Rockets for the first time as well. It was pretty good, and the people were extremely nice. They were really busy, but they still got to us in a timely manner and did so with a smile.
Also, in case you were wondering, as of yet, no one has paid me or given me food for saying nice things about them on my blog. So no worries about me saying nice things because I'm being compensated, although I would still tell the truth if I were!



I got home from my first day of Time Out For Women to find these from the Captain! 


Because it was somehow necessary for you all to see what was inside my Time Out for Women Tote bag. 

Anyway, I had a good week last week! It was busy but a lot of fun! What did you all do?
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Monday, November 16, 2015

Monday Moments

Hey guys! Welcome back to Monday :) I'm trying to get excited for the weekdays because I read something about how weekends are this tiny percentage of your life. It's kind of hard though because weekends are so great! Even though I really like my job, I won't lie, it's hard to get up and go some days. 

Anyway, onto the highlights.



Oh cheese fries, you have my heart :)




Soleil steals all the cuddle time that she can get now that she can't sleep with me in my room since the Captain is allergic.




Watercolors are the best guys. I used to love painting before I decided that I sucked at painting... but I'm totally into it again. I get all these grand ideas about things that I can paint that I really don't have the talent for, but who cares! We're adults and we can do what we want! :)


I always knew that cinnamon on applesauce was good. I did not know that it is also amazing on pears. It's legit guys. 
Also I think I've been watching too many cooking shows because I keep getting all these ideas for things to cook out of random ingredients that I'm not even sure if they would work. Like for example, on our honeymoon they gave us this nice basket of treats and things. Two of the things were pears and this holiday spice syrup, and I was like, "Hey, we could totally cook those pears in butter and caramelize it with sugar, or HEY we could pour that syrup over them!" 
This is just one example of the things my mind thinks that it can do right now. 

Anyway, I hope that you are having a fantastic Monday! Enjoy cozying up while it's all gloomy outside. I think I may go have my first cup of hot chocolate for the season :)

How was your week? What would be in your highlight reel?
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Sunday, November 15, 2015

Prayer Journaling

Some time ago I started seeing things on Pinterest about Prayer Journaling. I was intrigued, because I like to journal (ok, I like the idea of journaling, I'm not all that consistent at it). At the same time though, I worried that it wasn't appropriate to write my prayers. I'd always been taught that prayers were meant to be said out loud (when possible), on your knees (when possible). So writing them down seemed like maybe it wasn't actually prayer. Or like it was a cheaters way out of doing what I was supposed to be doing. All of these thoughts were kind of frustrating to me because writing is something that I do all the time, whether or not it's in a journal, and while I'd like to be as eloquent and sincere with my actual out loud words, I'm not. 

I decided to try it. If it didn't work or it felt wrong, then I could always never do it again. 

The first time I tried it I was in the lobby of the temple. The Captain and I had tried to do a session together, but through a series of unfortunate events that started with The Captain thinking he'd left his recommend in the car, we were separated and ended up going to entirely different sessions.

I knew that I wouldn't see him for at least an hour and I had nothing else to do, so I pulled out the small notebook that I carry with me, and I wrote out a prayer. 



The way that I felt when I wrote out that prayer is almost incomparable to any other experience I have ever had. I felt like I was finally connecting with my Father in Heaven the way that I'd always wanted to. That I was really communicating with Him in the way that both He and I would have wanted me to.

It was like I'd been trying to find a socket for the wrong kind of charger and finally found the one that fit. 

Since then I've tried to write out at least one prayer a day. I don't always have the time (because writing takes some effort and I find that my prayers are a lot longer when written rather than spoken), but when I do, it takes me right back to that feeling. The feeling that He is listening and that He loves me. It feels so right.

If you've been thinking about trying it, I would definitely encourage it! At least once, maybe you'll be like me and find that it was what you'd been looking for all along, or maybe you'll find that you connect better in another way. If there is anything that this experience has taught me it's that we don't all connect the same way. That it's ok that we don't all connect in the same way. God is willing to meet us wherever is best for us, even if that's a little differently than everyone else. 

Have you tried Prayer Journaling? What was your experience?

Also, as a side note, I know that I use a lot of LDS jargon that you may not be familiar with. I try to put links with that Jargon that might be helpful for you to understand! If you have any questions though, I'm happy to explain as best I can!
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Saturday, November 14, 2015

Insomnia

Every November I get insomnia. I'm not really sure why it happens and it seems like after November is over, things go back to normal. I always attributed it to writing, after all, this pretty much started the year I started doing NaNoWriMo, but this year it hit again and I haven't been doing so great at NaNo. Seriously I started my novel on Monday since I was getting married the first week in November (and I've only written 5000 words...). 
So last night I fell asleep at like 8 PM, and woke up wide awake at 2:30 this morning. 
Does this happen to anyone else? Seasonal insomnia?
After laying awake in bed for awhile I decided that if I was awake I might as well write for a bit, but of course I'm coming up blank when it comes to my story at the moment. 
So what did I do? I went upstairs and sat by the fire, while researching business cards (I may or may not have had a dream that I met Cleverly Coy and wanted to give her a card for my blog but didn't have any), looking at purses and instant print cameras (anyone know the benefits/downfalls of Fujifilm vs. Polaroid?), while binge watching Beauty and the Beast on Netflix. All in all not a horrible night for not sleeping ;)
Oh, and did I mention that I compiled a massive list of what I should have in my wardrobe? Yeah, that happened. Never mind that I'm broke, we'll not worry about those kind of details. 


Enjoy this sneak peek from our wedding day! :) This in one of only two pictures we've gotten to see so far :) 
Photo Credit: Erik Merrill

What do you guys do when you can't sleep? 

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Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Monday Moments

In case you were wondering, last week was pretty eventful, but I don't actually have pictures of everything, which is why I stole some of these from my Daddy and one of our other guests Melissa. :)


This was Monday. The day was pretty stressful but it turned out ok, because I had ordered these mermaid leggings like a month ago and they finally came! Really I needed these last year for November when my NaNo book was all about mermaids. And yes, I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year. 
Yes, I am crazy.
And no that is not my real ring. It was a stand in that I borrowed from my sister when my ring was being cleaned. :)


Basically this was amazing. You take spaghetti sauce and mix it with a brick of cream cheese and some garlic and parmesan. Delicious.


I was very cruel to my groom and didn't let him see my dress before the wedding day. Like not even until we were already married. This is the first moment that he saw the dress and he was adorable! :)


They made us kiss like 6 times so that everyone could get a shot of this, but we weren't really complaining.





So I'm not exactly sure if my daddy lost it during our daddy daughter dance at our Reception, but I did. I love this Dad of mine.


Probably there will be more pictures of us to come! I'll try not to overload you all.
In other news I hurt my toe on Sunday while falling down the stairs because apparently Sunday socks are pretty slippery and if you're walking down stairs behind your wife, they betray you and take her down as you fall.
That may have been confusing, but it's what really happened! :)

We got married on Wednesday and went to Park City for 3 days of which we took no pictures because I made a rule that we had to turn off our phones while we were gone. Then we came back for our Reception on Saturday. It was wonderful! 

Thank you all for reading and thank you for all the support you have given me in getting married!

What have you all been up to this last week?
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Wednesday, November 4, 2015

The Real Jeremy Manhandsome

When I was about 16 (ironically not long after I'd met the Captain), my best friend (also someone I met at EFY) created Jeremy Manhandsome for me. I picked the Jeremy part and he picked the Manhandsome part, go figure. Anyway, I created this man in my head, he was the one that I was gong to marry. He was perfect. He accepted me and all of my stupidity but in a way that didn't make me feel stupid or inadequate, in a very hopeful way.
He would whisk me off on adventures.
He would sing me to sleep.
And he would love me better and more deeply than anyone else ever could.
Over the years, I wrote him letters and over the years I pictured him in different ways.
Sometimes he was blond, sometimes brunet, (You didn't know that the spelling of those was gender specific did you?), and sometimes he had blue eyes... Ok, I'll be honest, he ALWAYS had blue eyes. Sue me, I like blue eyes. Occasionally he looked like a real person, but never anyone that I knew. 
And when things were bad and I wasn't happy, I would write to this imaginary man.
Or, I would tell myself a story about him. About him coming to take me away when the rest of the world was letting me down. I would picture myself moving to California where I would learn to surf and I would have flocks of boys after me. But they would all know that I was holding out for someone, someone that wasn't them. And life would be perfect in my little sun soaked apartment by the sea. I would write and run and surf and be that girl in my head that I was always trying to be. Calm, poised, elegant, but willing to get dirty. Adventurous with an artistic eye. Fashionable but kind. Smart enough to at least keep my head above water when talking about complex subjects. And I would be going to school (who knows how I planned to pay for my little sun soaked apartment in my mind) to become a Marine Biologist. I would be pretty, but in a way that wasn't just about looks. 
And one day he would find me and we'd run off to live happily ever after, away from the cares that I had. The worries about everything and about pleasing all the people who didn't seem to care enough to please me.
These were my dreams. 
I remember once having a conversation with my little sister about our dream life. 
Mine was all about the house that I would live in. The person that I would be. What was in the rooms of my house and the places I would drag my kids off to in an effort to inspire them and show them the beauty of the world.
Hers was all about the man that would fall for her.
In my dreams, he was always a given. I didn't plan him because he was already there. Jeremy Manhandsome, who now looking back was a lot more about me, than it ever was about him. 
He was perfect.
And I measured every man that I met or dated against him.
And that really sucked for all the boys that I dated. Because Jeremy Manhandsome had a lot of things going for him, not the least of which was unlimited financials and the ability to climb in my window at any moment smelling amazing, offer me the perfect outfit (because Jeremy knew I loved fashion and he knew that I couldn't afford it), and take my away into the night. To go dancing at a midnight ball, or swim in the ocean to see the mermaids (I already said it wasn't fair, I forgot to mention that Jeremy Manhandsome also had magic), or a motorcycle ride across the salt flats. Whatever it took to get me away from my house. Away from my life and the imperfections in it. 
He always had the perfect thing to say and all I ever complained about was the fact that he was taking so long to find me. That I was still single. Still stuck. 
But it wouldn't matter on our adventures. He would save me. Over and over again. 
And I would let him, because as much as I wanted to be strong and independent, I was someone who desperately needed and desperately wanted to be saved.
I wanted the Happily Ever After.
I wanted all the magic.
I would have my house on the edge of the sea, filled up with children and music and art and a husband who adored me. We would worry about the silly things of life because everything else would be taken care of. We would have the ability to drag our kids off to Europe and we would do service and we would sing and have a beautiful life together.
And I kept this beautiful, if absurd, dream tucked in my heart. I didn't REALLY believe that it wouldn't happen. Because after all, everything else I had ever wished for had come to me eventually, I DESERVED this happily ever after. I deserved that life. I did.
I found him.
I found my Jeremy. His name is The Captain to you all. 
There is a lot of my happily ever after that may never come true (although I kind of think I might be able to make it happen), but Jeremy finally showed up in the flesh. 
He whisks me off on adventures.
He accepts me and my stupidity without making me feel inadequate.
He sings me to sleep.
And he loves me more deeply than anyone else ever has or ever could. 
And today is our wedding.
He saved me in all the important ways, and now I only hope that I can do something to save him. To be his perfect girl and take care of him the way that he takes care of me :)











Photo Credit: Erik Merrill Photography
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Monday, November 2, 2015

Monday Moments



So last week was basically the worst week of my life. 
For real.
I don't know that I've cried that much in one week since my last horrible breakup.
But tomorrow is the last day that I have to spend as a single person! I'm so excited to start the next chapter of my life :) Can't wait to take you all along for the ride :)



So on Friday when I found out that the Captain no longer had a job, I went for a two hour walk and ended up here.




On Saturday we had a reception for my older sister's wedding :) it was beautiful, but by the time I got home after dinner I was beat. Which meant that instead of going to a Halloween Party, we collapsed on the couch and watched Age of Adeline. :)



After the reception we went to Sizzler and it was SO good. Maybe because I hadn't eaten all day, but it was still amazing. 

I promised you all one last love story post before I got married, and I'm still going to hold true to my word! Thank you all for reading, I hope that you have had a fantastic Monday! :)

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