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Thursday, July 28, 2016

Body Image

At the advice of my husband, today's post is going to be a bit rambly. It's something that I've been thinking a lot about lately and something that I have sort of posted about before. 

Body image.

I can't tell you the number of times I have written a post about this and kept it in my Evernote. 

I think that most of us probably have some form of body image issues. For me, I hate my nose (stupid little bump) and I hate my lower abs. The first is something that I can't change. Well, I guess I could get plastic surgery, but I'm unwilling to do that. The second is something that I've worked on in some form or another since they were pointed out to me as being less than perfect by a family member when I was about 15. 

They told me that I needed to work on my core and my posture so that they didn't stick out.

Now I've always been skinny, and I was completely unfamiliar with feeling fat. But ever since that day, I can't say that I've ever really "felt" skinny. No matter how many times people call me skinny. Even when they imply that I have an eating disorder for being so thin. I still feel fat. I still check in the mirror every morning to see if they're any flatter. I still get frustrated when they seem to stick out no matter what I do. In fact, I changed the position I slept in for years in hopes that it would somehow make them lie flatter.
I've tried to make my peace with them over and over again. Deciding to work out to be strong, not to get rid of them. But it doesn't stop me from checking in the mirror. From looking at every picture to see if they look bad in it. 

It's something that I'll continue working on.

My thought here though is more about what we say to others about their bodies. I've had people tell me that my teeth are crooked, that I would be so pretty if I only did my makeup or did my hair, I've had them tell me that I'm too tall, that I'm too skinny, that I should do something to fix my cowlick. 

Nearly everything that I worry about how I look is because someone told me that it was a flaw. Before someone mentioned those lower abs, I thought I was nearly flawless. I remember looking at myself in the mirror about a week before they commented on them and thinking that I had such a nice body. I was lucky to have such a nice body. I liked the way that I looked. It didn't last very long. 

We shouldn't be telling each other what's wrong. If it's a real problem, chances are, they already know about it. If they don't, is it really something that they need to be self-conscious about forever?

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Monday, July 25, 2016

Monday Moments

Hey, everyone! How is your week going? At the Captain's work, they celebrated pie 'n' beer day. So I made him Frozen Lemonade Pie with a gluten-free graham cracker crust so that he could celebrate. And of course, he brought in our favorite Butterbeer (non-alcoholic). Not a bad way to spend a Monday at work. 

If you follow me on Instagram then you know that the Captain brought me flowers last week

Those flowers were actually the inspiration for this piece. 

This did not turn out as well as I had hoped, but it was still pretty fun to do.

The "Giggle Potion" that we make with our butterbeer. It's actually pretty good. Plus, it makes you feel super cool and Harry Potterish.

We went shooting with some of the Captain's friends at the new TNT guns and range. Which also conveniently is attached to a burger place. The burgers were pretty amazing and not terribly expensive. Although, I may have still been price shocked over how much it costs to go shooting. I was reminded that I am not only bad at shooting, but I don't really enjoy it either. I'd say it was because I'm bad at it, but I think the extremely loud sounds don't help either.

I decided it would be a good idea to haul a giant box up the stairs to my apartment and was rewarded with these red marks for the rest of the day and some beautiful bruises on my arms now. I'm in one of those phases where I am always getting new bruises every day. Does that happen to anyone else?

Currently Reading:

The Chronicles of Narnia
By C.S. Lewis

Forgive My Fins
By Tera Lynn Childs

I started reading Panic By Lauren Oliver and The Fifth Wave by Rick Yancy, but they were both rated RQ (Rachael Quit) for language and such. 

What are you guys reading?

Something to take away:

"Everyone sucks before they get kinda good at something"

That's all for this week! How did you celebrate the 24th? What are you guys reading? Also, t-minus 1 week until my birthday! See you next Monday!

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Thursday, July 21, 2016

Skinny Dipping

Skinny dipping at sunset. Skinny dipping in a storm.
Warm water, cool rain. Water bubbles smaller than beads. Water leaping and dancing.
Just me and the sky. Washed out of loneliness and fear. 
Filled up with life
and all it cost me was a little courage and clothing.
Just me and a diamond ring, an empty house and an empty pool that I'm filling up with dreams of a life that seem like more than soap bubble songs. More than wishing wells and windows.
A solid diamond to remind me that a memory was more than just in my head.
We have a tangled romance, that boy and me. Full of kisses and tears, adventures.
Running. Lots of running.
He tied up my heart while I handed him the rope to do it.

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Monday, July 18, 2016

Monday Moments

Hey, everyone! How was your week? My in-laws were in town this last week and so we ended up spending a lot of time with them. They're basically the greatest. I'm so grateful that I married into a good family.

This salad is my jam right now. Mixed greens, apples, cranberries, cherry tomatoes, mozzarella, with balsamic and red wine vinegar.
SO good.

The Captain and I hiked Donut Falls on Wednesday. The Captain had never been! It needed to be corrected. We may or may not have also gotten a parking ticket while hiking. Apparently, when they say no parking, they mean no parking. Who knew?

On Saturday we went up to the Capitol lawn to watch the new Star Wars movie. It didn't go so well. Every time we found a good spot someone would adjust, or sit directly in front of us so we could no longer see. Also, apparently we're old because we got tired and went home around 11. 
We'll work on staying up later.
Or, I will.

Currently Reading:

The Chronicles of Narnia
specifically, Prince Caspian

By C.S. Lewis

Something to Take Away:

"Do not spoil what you have
by desiring what you have not;
But remember that what you have now
was once among the things you only hoped for"


Thanks for reading! I hope that you have a great week!
What are you doing this Summer?

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Monday, July 11, 2016

Monday Moments

Hey, everyone. I've been thinking a lot this past week about this blog of mine and how I should do it. This blog has always been intended to help my readers feel that they can be whoever they want to be. To inspire them to live whatever kind of life seems best for them. Hopefully inspiring them as I try to do the same with my own life. 

I'm not sure that's what it's doing. 

So, you may see some changes around here, but hopefully, they are good ones. Please let me know what you think!

Happy Monday :)
Here are the Moments.

I am still loving this Book of Mormon. I love that I can write what I think (and as much as I want) in the margins.

I made this "Grown Up" grilled cheese with the tomatoes left over from our salad the night before. Absolutely delicious. I dipped the sandwich, au jus style, in the leftover balsamic dressing. I would highly recommend trying this out.

Being the literary nerd that I am, how could I not? The Captain actually discovered these at our local Reams. He's addicted. I can't say that I blame him. 
Now I want to buy a whole case and binge read Harry Potter.

Currently Reading:

The Chronicles of Narnia 
By C.S. Lewis

Something to take away:

In light of the seemingly endless tragedies that keep rolling our way...

"Let no man pull you low enough to hate him"

-Martin Luther King Jr.

Have a great week guys. Thank you so much for reading. 

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Thursday, July 7, 2016

Writing Journal #65

I have a galaxy on my finger. Waiting to throw constellations from the sunlight. 
All because you wanted me.
Because I was more to you than a set of tragedies and dreams. 
I was the stars on dark nights, with more points of light than you could count. But you'd spend the rest of your days learning the name of each drop of light, the rest of your precious minutes naming the unknown.
You would see the patterns where everyone else saw only scattered light. 

Thanks for reading
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Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Monday Moments

Hey! Its been a long time! I spent the last couple weeks helping my husband out at his work and didn't really have time to blog. But I'm back! I really missed blogging! 

So here's what happened the last two weeks. 

My Mom took us up to Snowbird for the weekend as our birthday presents for the year. So we got to play with the whole family and do the alpine slide and all of those other fun things up there. It was really pretty and I enjoyed spending the time with everyone. 

So this is how the Captian and I celebrated the Fourth of July. We mostly chilled at home. We went out and got burgers at lunch (because burgers are American, right?). The Captain learned that a black bean burger has no meat and that it's basically just ground up black beans. He did not like it.

Then we came home and watched a documentary. After which we walked to the closest grocery store to get hot dogs (because they are also very American) and ended up also getting some fireworks and drinks. 

Then we watched Friends until it got dark and did fireworks off our balcony (during which I was very afraid that we were going to catch something on fire, but we didn't!).

And that's, apparently, how the Stoll's do the 4th of July.

Currently Read/Reading:

The Burning Sky
By Sherry Thomas

The Mermaid Summer
By Mollie Hunter

Something to Take Away:

Great people do things before they're ready.

-Amy Poehler

What did you do for the 4th of July?

Thanks for reading!
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