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Friday, November 25, 2016

Don't Give Up

It all started on Thursday. Well, really it started with the beginning of the month. I had decided I was going to hand write my novel and it just seemed like all these things kept getting in the way. The novel itself has been fairly easy to write, but it has NEVER been harder to find time to write it.

Last Thursday I gave up my dream of handwriting my novel, all 50,000 words, this month. I just ran out of time. So instead of writing nothing, I deemed it a better trade to write the rest on my computer.

I didn't realize how deeply I'd been wanting to accomplish this goal, because the next 3 days ended in me bawling my eyes out every night before I fell asleep.

In fact, most nights this last week have ended with my bawling my eyes out.

This month has been HARD. I have never doubted my ability as a writer so much. I have never decided so many times that I was going to quit my novel and move on with my life. In fact, I'm not sure that there have ever been so many days when I just didn't feel like writing. 

I've sent the Captain so many texts this month that were pretty much me telling him that I was never going to amount to anything as a writer and that I might as well just give up now and stop wasting all of our valuable time together on this hobby that is worthless.

Yeah, its been that kind of month.

In spite of all that. I can tell you that I haven't given up. I may currently be 3000 words behind where I should be for today, but I haven't given up. This book may not be amazing when I'm done this month, but it will be complete. 

I will not give up. No matter what.

Maybe writing isn't your thing. Maybe things are really difficult for you right now. I get that. I SO TOTALLY get that. 

Don't give up.

We've got this.
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