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Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Monthly Moments | January 2018

Well, my due date has come and gone and I'm still pregnant! Although, who knows, maybe by the time this post goes out we'll have our little girl :)

Brian is hoping that she is born tomorrow (Jan. 31, I'm writing this on Jan. 30) so that we can say that she was born under the Super Blue Blood Moon. Although, I honestly feel like phenomena like this seem to happen every other week now. Even so... it could be cool!

This month seemed to go by really quickly and yet it didn't seem like a whole lot happened!

-We celebrated the New Year with our traditional fondue party. That's all three top pictures. It's one of my favorite traditions that two of my best friends and I started a few years after high school. Unfortunately one of them no longer lives in the state and so we had to do it without him.

-I bought the Modern Florals book for myself with Christmas money and I've loved learning to draw flowers so far! I plan on practicing a different creative habit every week. This week is watercolor. Hopefully, I can still keep this up a bit after the baby is born.

-I got this Nib and Ink book for Christmas and I've loved starting to work with actual nibs and ink instead of just doing hand-lettering. 

-Recently re-obsessed with egg sandwiches. I kind of go through phases with food, we call them feast and famine times. I can't get enough of something, then I don't want it for a really long time. Poor Brian has had to deal with this to the point where he often thinks I don't actually like something anymore because I shoot it down every time he suggests it (like quinoa), but really I'm usually just in a famine time. 

-We had our Version at 37 weeks and it was successful! I really didn't think that they were going to be able to turn the baby. In fact, I almost didn't even try. Partially because I heard that it hurts worse than child labor and if it wasn't even going to work then I'd rather skip the unnecessary pain. While I've never been through childbirth, I would say that it wasn't as bad as what I imagine childbirth to be like. I did take the pain medication they offered and it was not a fun experience, but it was definitely worth it. This picture was the last letter I wrote to Everly before we tried to turn her. 

-This last bump picture is from 38 weeks. 

Current Goals/To-Dos:

Let's be real, my only real goal for February is to survive my first month of motherhood. :) Hopefully, record some of it in journals and pictures, but mainly just focus on being a mom.

Currently Reading:

Oathbringer By Brandon Sanderson

Something to take away:

"Strive not to be a success, but rather to be of value."

-Albert Einstein

Oh, and for your viewing pleasure...

From 4 weeks to 38 weeks pregnant :)

Hopefully, the next picture is with a baby in it!

Thanks for reading! I hope you've all had a fantastic January! Are you looking forward to February?

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Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Would it STILL be worth it?

Image via Adobe Spark

Right now Brian is outside trying to put our car seat in the car so that whenever little miss Everly decides to make her debut they will actually let us take her home. I was sitting inside, scrolling through social media and thinking about how it affects me.

I've always been someone who has tried to use social media as a resource rather than entertainment. I held off on getting Pinterest for a year or two because I was afraid that I would just use it as entertainment. I wanted to be intentional about it. I took Facebook off of my phone last year because I didn't feel like it was adding to my life. I'm admittedly in love with Instagram and use it more than any other social media outlet. And yes, sometimes I use all three of the above as time wasters and as entertainment.

This year I have really tried to take a step back and look at what they are doing for me. Questioning whether or not they really have a good purpose in my life. I found myself placing so much of my personal happiness on the number of followers I did or did not have, or the number of likes a post got. It wasn't who I wanted to be. I asked myself, if I were able to have the life that I dream of having, with travel and good food and solid deep relationships (Relationships is my word for the year by the way) and an amazing marriage and NO ONE knew about it but me and the people directly involved, would it make it worth any less? Was the value of those things in the fact that other people would admire me for them or in the things themselves? I'll admit to feeling just a little sad thinking about no one admiring me for all these amazing pieces of life that I hope to cultivate, but ultimately, the things I really want... those deep relationships, they would mean so much more to me than the "attention" of several thousand anonymous followers. I still want to share things, but I want the focus to be less on me. I want to teach myself to care more about how I'm helping people, making them feel like they matter and that they can achieve their dreams, rather than what them knowing about my life can do for me. 

So I've spent less time on all social media. I've tried to get back to the root of what they can do for me. Trying to use them as a tool and really connect with people rather than just scrolling through and liking pretty pictures. I've especially tried to make sure to put the people around me before social media. This means that if Brian wants to show me something and I just started scrolling through instagram, I put the phone down and listen or look or do whatever I need to do to give him my full attention, instead of being sad or annoyed that I would lose my place and miss out on things I would have potentially wanted to see. It isn't always easy and I swear that I can be staring off into space doing nothing and the minute I decide to look at social media, that's when someone wants my attention, but ultimately, those people mean so much more to me than the time I could be spending on social media.

Now I'm not saying that social media is bad. I have been so inspired by so many people, from bloggers, to photographers, to chefs, all sharing little pieces of their lives that help me become more who I want to be. I just want to remember where social media comes in on the list of things that are important in my life. People are the most important, and I hope that I never forget that.

Thank you so much for reading! 
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Thursday, January 11, 2018

Maternity Photoshoot

Right now I am writing this at our kitchen table, wondering what it will be like if we end up having our baby tomorrow, or right now, maybe. As you read this I'm probably at the hospital trying to get Everly turned the right way around.

We took these photos about a month ago. I knew that the time would go by quickly because of the holidays, but we're still about 2 and half weeks until my due date. I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that she could be born tomorrow. It is a REALLY small chance that they would need to deliver her tomorrow, but hey, I want to be prepared anyway.

I'd been planning this photo shoot for practically my whole pregnancy. Every time I see the picture of Brian kissing my belly I melt. I'm so glad that we had a chance to do this shoot. My little sister did them for us and it was FREEZING cold outside, but it was so worth it. 

This is a new starting point for us. A step toward a whole new life that I really can't even comprehend. With our due date so close it's starting to feel surreal. I can see her moving in my stomach. I can feel her, but to imagine her out in the world with us all the time... I have no idea what that will look like. Throughout it all, all the prep and the conversations and the advice given over just about everything, I'm so grateful for the group of people that have supported me as I've said, "I don't know" to questions about what will happen after the baby is born. 

Today is my perhaps my last day without a newborn and I'm pretty sure we'll spend it the way we always do. We'll try and figure out what to eat for dinner. We'll settle into the lovesac and watch Netflix. Then we'll say our prayers together and go to bed. Maybe if we're feeling like she really WILL be born tomorrow we'll splurge on eating out for dinner. It will be simple and familiar, but I like it like that. I like spending time together in our home, even when we do basically nothing. I like our little apartment, mainly because it's ours. Even though it is so far from what I pictured bringing a baby home to. 

Thank you all for reading and for your support! I can't even count the number of people that have popped up and supported me when I least expected it. You guys have made me feel so loved and supported and excited to move forward, instead of afraid. 

Wish me luck! I'm sure they'll be an update soon on how successful the ECV is :)

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Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Church Handlettering

I've been taking notes in church since I was about 15. Some people take notes so that they can come back to look at them later, but for me, I have been taking notes so that I could stay focused. It's really hard for me to get anything out of church when I'm just sitting there listening. Connecting it with physically putting the words on the paper helps my brain to stay on task, and then I actually remember some of it later on. I'm also a people watcher, so I have to sit near the front and if I'm not taking notes, there's a good chance that I'll be watching the cute two-year-old who keeps dropping things rather than listening to the message. 

In the last couple of years, I've gotten into hand-lettering, but I haven't incorporated it into my church note taking or church journaling much... mostly because I was scared I would be really bad at it. Also, because the few times I did try, it turned out about as poorly as I expected. I never really stopped wanting to though. Especially around General Conference when I would see all the beautiful hand-lettered notes and phrases that my friends would share on social media. 

Then Thanksgiving and Black Friday rolled around. I hate black Friday shopping and Black Friday deals because  I feel too much pressure to buy things right away. Impulse buying is not my style (though I still do it from time to time). I like to mull things over. I like to take my time and decide whether something is really worth the money. Black Friday gives me anxiety and "Fear of missing out" worse than just about anything else. So during Black Friday and Cyber Monday and all of that, I tried to stay off of social media, especially Instagram... but I did check my email. I had an email from Amanda Arneill about her church lettering kits "going away forever". Fear of missing out kicked in and I could pass up the opportunity to learn how to turn my notes into art. Maybe I could finally combine my love of lettering and my faith.

I'm so grateful that I didn't pass it up.

My lettering kit came pretty quickly (along with my other black Friday purchase) and I immediately sat down to read it. It was perfect timing because my church journal was almost out anyway, but I didn't want to wait to start, so I took the principles she talked about and started the next day.

I was honestly a little self-conscious about lettering at church. After almost 10 years of taking notes at church I'd gotten used to people watching me take notes, even reading them if they sat next to me, but I'd never really lettered in front of anyone before. I worried about what they'd think of me or they would judge me if my pages turned out as badly as I suspected they might. 

I did it anyway. I tried to focus on connecting with what the speaker was saying and what it meant to me. I tried to make the words stand out in a way that was beautiful on the page. I was doing it for me, not for anyone else. Just like I'd been taking notes for myself for 10 years. I've absolutely loved it. I've loved feeling connection between creation and worship as I write down what stands out to me, even if it isn't exactly what the speaker said or it isn't what the speaker said at all.

I highly recommend trying it out! It doesn't have to be perfect. I feel like I still have a long way to go, just start and see where it takes you.

The good news is that you don't need the lettering kit to do it. Lined paper works, blank paper works, any paper works. When I started I used lined paper and a sharpie pen. The other good news is that the lettering kits are currently still available! This post isn't sponsored, it was just something that I loved and wanted to share. 

Good luck! If you decide to try it out, I'd love to see your lettering! I'll probably be sharing more of mine on my lettering account on Instagram @letteredinlight 

Thanks for reading! How do you stay focused at church?
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