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Wednesday, October 23, 2019

An Open Letter to Our Baby Boy

I intended to write a lot more of these, but it's true, it's harder the second time around. Regardless, I am still so excited to add another member to our family. A little part of me worries that there is no way that I could love this baby as much as Everly (I think she's pretty fantastic 😉), but the other part of me knows that there is no way that I couldn't love this baby with everything that I am. 

As we get closer to labor I'm starting to realize how many fears that I have attached to labor. With Everly, I had no idea what I was getting into, and pretty much just figured I'd deal with things as they came. Which I did. Now that I know a little bit more about the labor experience, I worry about the labor being long (because Everly's was). I worry that because second babies tend to come more quickly that I won't have time for an epidural and even though I planned on going through some kind of natural labor program just in case... I definitely haven't done that. I worry that this baby will end up in the NICU (because Everly did). I feel like I have no real concept of what a normal hospital stay after birth is like because Everly was never in my room. I worry about how Everly will be taken care of, especially if I need Brian to stay with me at the hospital because last time I couldn't get in and out of bed on my own.

I'm trying really hard not to expect for the worst this time around, but also plan enough for it that if it happens I'm not crushed and things fall into disarray. 

Having babies is a wild ride. 

We did end up having a baby shower for this little one and I'm so grateful to the people that showed up and supported us. I was genuinely touched. 

Now I'm just trying to plan Christmas so that it's all taken care of before this little guy comes. 

Thank you so much for reading and for all your support! Each page view really does mean something to me 😊

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