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Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Monthly Moments | November 2019

Man, this year though. I think I can safely say that this has been the hardest year of my life. With things being so crazy lately, I've had a lot on my mind. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I can do with my life to support this little family of mine. Due to our financial circumstances and things that may impact them in the coming year (or really, just life), I've thought a lot about what career I could pursue. It has been hard for me to think fo anything that I would really want to do. I have always planned on being a stay at home mom, but that may just not be in the plans for me. It has been a hard dream to let go of. Currently, I'm thinking of possibly becoming a yoga instructor or a Lactation consultant, or maybe focusing in on my hand lettering and becoming an artist there. Any of those would require some work/certification, and I'm not really confident that any of them would be enough to support our family if it came down to it. I'm passionate about being a mom. I love to write, but I don't really want to make that my source of income (for a variety of reasons). If you have any tips on how you found your passion, I would love to hear about it!

This was at 34 weeks! I can hardly believe that as I write this we are 16 days away from our due date. I want this little man to come in December (December 1 would be ideal), but we'll see. Brian is betting on a November baby since I'm already dilated to a 3 and 70% effaced. I feel like I keep thinking of little things I want to be done or still need to get before the baby comes (things like making up a couple batches of lactation cookies to put in the freezer or getting new bottles). We'll see how many of those I get through before he gets here! Also, we still have no name!

Everly has decided that she is against clothes this month. So she's pretty much just running around in a diaper all day long. Unless we go for a walk or a "venture" (adventure). 

A big tender mercy this month has been that Everly has decided she doesn't totally hate her breathing treatments. We got a nebulizer for her at the end of October because she had a cold and was having a hard time breathing. Every treatment that we did on her during that cold she cried and fought. 

Then a few weeks later she started having trouble breathing again. This time she didn't seem to have a cold. She has a cough, but no other symptoms other than not breathing well. I decided we should use the nebulizer on her and dreaded it, but she took it like a champ. She fought just a little the first treatment and didn't seem bothered at all after that. 

We put up the Christmas Tree. 

Honestly, I am usually one of those "wait until after Thanksgiving" people. But, it wasn't my choice when to put up the tree and it has been so much fun to see Everly start to learn about Christmas. I have been trying to think of what traditions to start with her now that she's getting older. I want to make sure that it's Christ-centered, without taking away the magic of Santa or presents. This is something that I feel like Brian's family does very well. They are all so generous and while there never seems to be any lack of presents in their house, I get the feeling that you could take all the presents away and they would still be just as happy (kind of like the whos down in Whoville). I asked them how they were able to cultivate that kind of home and the gist of it was that they were focused on others and on giving. They tried to incorporate scriptures and Christmas stories leading up to the day, but also focused on what they were giving to each other, not what they were getting. So I'm going to try and do that with Everly and our other babies! Hopefully, they'll get all the beauty of Christmas without any of the greed (I feel like too often I'm greedy and thinking about what I want or what I'm getting). 

Books I've loved this month:

Harry Potter 5 (honestly I haven't loved it, but it's all that I've read 🙈)

Podcasts I have loved this month:

A couple things that have stuck with me from these podcasts. 
-It's ok to have a passion outside of parenting
-Master something by focusing on learning everything you can and diving deeply into that topic (either through schooling or your own) every 5 years. As a dabbler, this is something that really appeals to me. Also, it got me thinking about what I'd like to learn even before I started thinking about what I might want to do to support my family.
-Your highest and holiest calling is whatever you feel the Lord has called you to do right now.
-We should value motherhood, but not idealize it.
-Start on your goals now. Don't wait until the New Year!

Thankfully my pregnancy insomnia has mostly gone away. I'm more excited about the Christmas season than I have been in years thanks to my planning ahead and actually planning Christmas before the week before. Also, I'm thinking that whether or not this baby comes in December, I'll probably still put him in a stocking. He has been such a bright spot this year and his little kicks and twists have helped me focus on the little miracle that he is when other things seemed to be falling apart. Honestly, this year has taught me so much about the value of my family. I'm so grateful for them. It has also taught me about tender mercies and learning to be content with where I am. 

Thank you all for reading! I hope that you have a fantastic Thanksgiving!
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